Self Esteem & Confidence
Date: 12/05/2012
Last time I did one of these 'personal' topics, it was in form of a video, I decided to do this one on my blog, because to be completely honest, although it may not seem it, it's a very touchy subject to me.
Now adays it seems that young girls/women in particular are becoming less & less self confident. There are alot of factors that cause girls to loose self confidence. I understand boys can also have low self esteem, however, I'm focusing this blog post on girls, because I can relate.
I personally believe one of the main triggers that leads a girl to loosing her self confidence is other females. I've noticed that instead of girls 'sticking together', girls have become bitchy and naive and constantly hate on other girls for no reason. Every time I see another girl it seems I receive dirty looks from her, even though she doesn't know me, yet she seems to already dislike me. Girls as I said above have also become more and more bitchy. Its become a 'statement' that when a girl doesn't like another girl, she says abuse about her appearance. For example, mocking their weight or calling them 'ugly.' I've had this ALOT, and believe me, It doesn't make that person any better/prettier than you.
Another factor is relationships/boys. I'm not saying that all boys make girls feel low, but there is a huge majority out there that unfortunately do. Whether they have cheated on a girl, or just generally treated her like crap and been nasty. I honestly don't think people realise sometimes the damage they do just by opening their mouth and not thinking about what they are saying. You shouldn't let a boy or an event effect you, they did this to you so they are not worth the effort or time.
I don't think celebs help either, luckily I'm not one of these people who dwell on the way celebs look, but I know alot of girls who do, and believe me, it takes an expensive makeup artist to make them look that good, they don't wake up looking that perfect! You would be amazed how different a makeup artist can make you look, I didn't even recognise myself when I got mine done for the very event!
For some reason, a lot of people look at me and think 'she loves herself.' I don't understand myself but maybe its the fact I'm not afraid to wear makeup and perhaps the bold colour of my hair? Whatever it is, its causing the majority of girls to hate me. But why should I change my appearance for somebody else? I shouldn't. If the girls stopped judging and got time to know me, they'd see I'm a really nice person, but isn't that all people do now? Is judge?
I have had alot of confidence issues in the past, to the point were I almost had to get therapy because it got that bad. I overcome it because I realised I am who I am, I'm not going to change and I gradually gained my confidence back. My point to the blog is this. If people are lowering your self esteem - DON'T LET THEM. Just because somebody says 'your ugly' doesn't mean you actually are and in fact theirs probably more people who think your good looking. don't lower yourself to their level, Never let someones bad actions make you feel crappy about yourself. At the end of the day, who's going to be there if nobody else is? yourself.
Week Madness & Ghost!
Date: 01/02/2012
'Last' week was very mental! I know I should of probably written this yesterday but I forgot so I'm doing it today.
Ive constantly been working lately to earn some good money, starting at 7 can be hard because I have to get up at 5:30am, but to be honest I'm used to it now! Yesterday was a struggle to get to work due to all the snow and even when I did show up the store was DEAD. We must of had about 10 customers the whole day, so the day completely dragged.
I've been stressed as hell lately! Working constantly, trying to find social time for Adam & learning to drive - which is fun but its taking a lot of money and time - I'll be glad when its over with!
Been stressing over my looks as well (as per) I ran out of eyelashes so had to order a huge bundle, but only one pack turned up and the other one has gone missing, so I'm currently waiting for that (we all know how crap the post can be!) & to top it all off, my hair has grown so much my extensions need removing, but I refuse to remove them without my new ones, so my hairs knotting at the back. Hoping my hair comes soon, but unfortunately because the pieces are from china they can take up to 3 weeks! Plus they have tax on them now too which is another 20£!
Then I had to remove my acrylic nails and I constantly wear them because I have a bad nail biting habit, and its so bad that I get cuts all over my fingers from where I bite them right down (disgusting I know!) So I'm desperately in need of getting those done, but I like to get my hair/nails done at the same time so until the hair arrives I'm a sloppy mess!
Going to town tomorrow with mum, I have the day off work so I'm going to help her with her shopping - which I'm sure will be very pleasant in this weather.
Also, I was watching my most recent video (NO7 review & update) and kept noticing a strange spec of light (like a small dot, similar to the ones on most haunted) to the left of me. It kept appearing and changing directions and moving around, as if it was walking or running. I looked back at previous video's too and noticed it again! My dad says I obviously have a 'friend' who wants to be in my video's ha ha!
I don't mind to much as long as it's somebody nice - you never know it might be Patrick Swayze;)
My weeks are never calm anymore - always hectic but never exciting.
ahhh, don't you wish you could skip a couple of weeks - I would go straight to summer!